Job. David. The Apostle Paul. Jesus, the man himself. Hannah.
These are some of the biblical figures who had so much pain. They had dark days BUT there was something that made them look beyond the pain and and beyond the dark, dark circumstances, and to hold on.There was something or someone who gave them the strength to wipe away their tears and still praise God.
Of recent, i learnt that life does not stop just because you have stopped yours. The clock would still tick. The sun would still rise and set. The clouds would still form and disappear. The wind would still blow. Basically, life would go on, but without you. When you hit that lowest point, when you start to question your integrity, there are three things that would happen.
1. you whine and just continue to whine. focusing on the negative and not on the positive side of the situation you may find yourself.
2. you may stop believing what it was that you've always believed. you may see God as a mean God, and decide not to look up to him anymore.
3. you may continue to praise. At night, you would cry yourself to sleep, but in the morning, you are bright and and all smiles because you know that sorrow may last through the night but joy comes in the morning.
I've gotten to understand that, no one will ever know your pain. No one will understand. Someone will judge you, someone will wish you cleaned up your act and just got over it. Someone will wish you opened up and just share your pain with them, thinking they can handle it, then they feel sorry for getting involved in the first place. Someone will however help you work through it and not over it. The dark night of the soul as someone once said, it that excruciatingly painful defining moment when you are tested in fire. The question still remains, do you keep holding on or do you let go?
Personally, I know that grace carries me through. I know that God promised to be there for me, and with me always. I know that God promised me encouragement and enablement and ability to get through the storm. I know he did not promise me a walk in the park. I mean, it really dawned on me that if this journey on earth was meant to be a walk in the park, then Jesus needn't to have come down on earth in flesh. But God knows all, sees all and knows what is best.
Always pray for the strength to do each day, what you have to do. Keep on trusting God for a brighter day.I don't know why things happen, and i am not about to claim that i do. I don't know much, but so far, that is what i have learnt.
To be continued........
