Random thoughts

This one is short and very very random.

As a christian, i have come to understand that the greatest pain you go through is the self-afflicted pain through crude disobedience and not necessarily satanic attacks. It's not easy to swim against the current, but when you end up in the middle of now-where, regret becomes your solace, after having drifted too far.
However, we are always presented with two choices, hence two pains.
1.The pain of self-discipline. short-lived and most excruciating.
2.The pain of failure to fulfill responsibility. It can be in any area. This one is a cutting kind of pain.
I am one of those stubborn people who rationalize irrationality because it is convenient and  just painless until the moment when the blunt truth catches up with you?
What do you want? What do you need? What choices do you have? What will be your choice? Do you want to grow or stagnate?
Answering these questions, will definitely surprise you. I am in the processing of answering mine. You may begin to answer yours too.

P.S. If you cannot answer these questions for your sake, try to work on them, for the sake of those that are watching you. For those that look up to you. Those that see you as a role model, even though you do not know them. For their sake.
Sometimes we forget the source. Someone wrote: 'Victory begins with the name of Jesus on your lips; but it will not be consummated until the nature of Jesus is in your heart.'
 Everything considered, i got to understand that if i had the ability to become a better person on my own, i could have been a better person by now. But i now know that I cannot not, except i go to the cross. Let us allow Jesus to transform us into his likeness.

Stay blessed.

Lord by myself

I am short of words. I attended a Powerful youth camp a few days ago and as a result, this peace transpired. I don't know what to say further than to share the 'synopsis' of the piece i shared

Here goes:

 Lord by myself i said i would change

 By myself i made a vow to you to change my ways and bear fruits.

By myself i thought i would glorify your name and serve you like my life depended on it.

Lord by myself i cannot qualify to even stand at your pearl gates.

By myself i cannot hear what you have for me.

By myself i have searched the world over for the one thing or person, that is big enough to fill the gaping hole in  my soul.

By myself i have lingered in limbo, unable to make decisions that really matter.

By myself, i cannot impact my world.

By myself, i tried to bear fruit and i failed.

Newsflash

The preacher man told me about the man who walked the earth 2000 years ago.

He came because God so loved me.

He came because God had created man in order to fellowship with him....constantly.

This man said he is the vine and his father the gardener.

My soul found the treasure that i had sought after for so long in this man.

I gave him 30% of my life.

I felt like i had arrived.....until i ran out of fuel.

What did i do?

God: lean not on your own your own understanding.

Me: God, i am sure you will understand.

With that, what i implied was, can do it all by myself.

What i implied was, he may bless me, but please, may i lavish my blessings on me!

What i implied was you may keep evil from me, but please,  this is kinda personal. It hurts, but i am now used to it. I can handle it, all by myself.

That was when i gave you 70%.

I said to me, i have surrendered all to you, but there was a tiny hiatus that could not be filled. 

I felt the humongous vacuum,  looming in the shadows, following me every where.

One day, i threw caution to the wind.

Jesus said : come to me ye who are heavy laden and i will give you rest. Take up my yoke, for it is lighter.

Jesus said : if you remain in me, i will remain in you.

Paul said: i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

David said : lean not on your own understanding.

Solomon said : commit all your ways to the Lord and you will be successful.

I said to God: i surrender all. all to thee, i surrender all.

My academics,  i surrender.

My heart, i surrender

 My finances,  i surrender.

 All my birds and bees, i surrender.

Today, Understanding who i am in Christ, i live with abandon.

Every day with a new learning.

Trusting in God the father for love and vision.

Trusting in God the son, for the grace to endure.

Trusting in God the holy spirit,  for day to day communion with my maker.

 by myself, i could not run the race.

But with God, i can do all things, because he strengthens me each day. 

For as long as i keep a conscious understanding of my limits and daily surrender, i know, i will bear the fruits that i have been called to bear.

do your good works and Let your light shine, so men can praise your father in heaven.

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Bear fruits that will remain.