It is not because i am afraid of not making it, but i am scared of what could happen if i made it.
What would happen if i just grew up? It means i would have to put my ducks in a row and clean up my act.
It means i would have to become responsible and take it like a man. sighs. It would mean i have to take responsible for my actions.
It means i would have to think on my two feet, to get up when life knocks me down.
It means accepting that i cannot grow in my comfort zone and i would have to step out in order to expand. I recently heard that captive sharks can only grow up to the size of their tank.
It is quite obvious that the audience is interested in results and not In how you intend to get the results. The audience is interested in the play and not the rehearsal or script organization.
Why am i not acting my age? Because they would think, i think i am too grown up.
Why am i not keeping my word? Because they would call me "holier than thou" even though deep down i believe i am more screwed up than everyone i know, which gets worse when i try to explain my actions because they would think i am judging them.
Why am i wearing clothes i hate, listening to music i would rather not, watching everything on vampires and walking with a limp just to be on the crew? Because they would think i am lame and i have no game.
Why do i disregard the rules in a crowd and keep to them when alone? Yup, you guessed it right. They said the rules are made to be broken.
To not be is hard. I have to wake up and just be. I have to grow up and take responsibility for my actions.
I have to stop lip service and do what makes me happy. I want to be happy; who knows, maybe, constant happiness would transform into joy and then, i would live happily ever after (but life is not a fairy tale).
I don't always win, but that does not mean that i ought not to try.
I will surely land among the stars aiming for the moon.
I may not always get it right, but if i keep at it, i will become your go-to person.
I may not be highly opinionated but i know that i can sleep at night without having to worry about what they might think.
I may have reason to flare up, puff up, avenge, hate and judge, but guess what, I don't have the right. I am not perfect, neither do i claim to be. I am just a little girl, a little boy, who is scared of the dark, but still steps out to cross over, because home is across that dark forest.
I know that i do not owe you an explanation.
I know that it is about how i have impacted someone with my life and not how many years i have had fulfilling all their whims and oscillating between their every beck and call.
I know it is about having self-respect, even if it were the last thing i would ever have or do, and just do something right just because it is right in its own right.
It is not simple. It is a process. It is a journey, so i am just going to buckle up, sit back, relax and enjoy the ride.
The difference between diamond and graphite, is the heat they have been exposed to. I am just a diamond in the rough, taking deliberate steps towards the finishing furnace for purification.
Congratulations to me, I just realized that it doesn't all have to be so complicated.
It means i would have to think on my two feet, to get up when life knocks me down.
It means accepting that i cannot grow in my comfort zone and i would have to step out in order to expand. I recently heard that captive sharks can only grow up to the size of their tank.
It is quite obvious that the audience is interested in results and not In how you intend to get the results. The audience is interested in the play and not the rehearsal or script organization.
Why am i not acting my age? Because they would think, i think i am too grown up.
Why am i not keeping my word? Because they would call me "holier than thou" even though deep down i believe i am more screwed up than everyone i know, which gets worse when i try to explain my actions because they would think i am judging them.
Why am i wearing clothes i hate, listening to music i would rather not, watching everything on vampires and walking with a limp just to be on the crew? Because they would think i am lame and i have no game.
Why do i disregard the rules in a crowd and keep to them when alone? Yup, you guessed it right. They said the rules are made to be broken.
To not be is hard. I have to wake up and just be. I have to grow up and take responsibility for my actions.
I have to stop lip service and do what makes me happy. I want to be happy; who knows, maybe, constant happiness would transform into joy and then, i would live happily ever after (but life is not a fairy tale).
I don't always win, but that does not mean that i ought not to try.
I will surely land among the stars aiming for the moon.
I may not always get it right, but if i keep at it, i will become your go-to person.
I may not be highly opinionated but i know that i can sleep at night without having to worry about what they might think.
I may have reason to flare up, puff up, avenge, hate and judge, but guess what, I don't have the right. I am not perfect, neither do i claim to be. I am just a little girl, a little boy, who is scared of the dark, but still steps out to cross over, because home is across that dark forest.
I know that i do not owe you an explanation.
I know that it is about how i have impacted someone with my life and not how many years i have had fulfilling all their whims and oscillating between their every beck and call.
I know it is about having self-respect, even if it were the last thing i would ever have or do, and just do something right just because it is right in its own right.
It is not simple. It is a process. It is a journey, so i am just going to buckle up, sit back, relax and enjoy the ride.
The difference between diamond and graphite, is the heat they have been exposed to. I am just a diamond in the rough, taking deliberate steps towards the finishing furnace for purification.
Congratulations to me, I just realized that it doesn't all have to be so complicated.
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